Happy Birthday MJJ

R.I.P Michael J. Jackson

Still awake so I shall write.

And so it's 2:46am && I'm still awake unable to sleep for whatever reason. Monday was the first day of classes it was okay....I guess. Didn't really see much people yet but for the people who I did see......HMMM! I have no feeling for this semester just yet because it's just the beginning but I guess the weekend will tell. I think it is just funny how summer comes you miss everything and everyone and then we are back to school and you just start to be reminded about the S#%T that bothers you...smh, but whatever! A lot of people have just been frustrating me already which is kind of sad, being that we haven't even been back a week yet.

On the other hand I have a single now, which is good because I could escape everyone whenever I want- though they do still try to come bother me....I just ignore the door[evil face]; but I do miss you as a roommate Rachel.....

PUBLIC SERVICE ANNOUNCEMENT.......

I SEE SOMEONE CREEPING...HEADING SOUTH WEST OF CAMPUS.

But honestly, I just feel as if I wasn't prepared to come back. I didn't shop for school at all this summer. Smh at me for slacking on my addiction, but I will do some online shopping in the morning :-) .

Well I shall try to go to sleep for real this time.

Last day

…..and at the end of my last day

“Your face would be the reason I smile.”

There must be something about you because for the past 3 years
your always the last person I see on
my last day
<3

Random thought.

"And I know it kills you inside to know that I am happy with some other guy"

:-)

OVERDOSE

No one knows about OVERDOSE.
It’s a secret.

Honestly, I’m purely attracted to him && much more.

I convinced myself early on

that he was slightly unattainable

[but it was a challenge that I was willing to take]

everyone wants what they think they can’t have

…maybe it’s the forbidden fruit theory?

I don’t know.

If you were to ask me I would say that

I really don’t like him and at the moment

I don’t but just like any other drug..

You want to chase that high you achieved the first time,

which would require a

larger and stronger

dosage until you eventually run the risk of an

OVERDOSE.

Summer '09

And so I made it through another endless summer of semi-recklessness. But that time has come again where we come to an end and move on to the fall. June and July was cool but it was August that I was looking forward to.

I went to the place that I have been dreaming about for years.

St. Thomas, Virgin Islands

the most beautiful place that I have been to yet. I met a different kind of sunshine there. Nine days of traveling 3 beautiful island and the great waters. Meeting new people every step of the way.

Having a love hate relationship for Staten Island…urrrgh it seems to be the best and worst thing for me. Seeing faces that I left behind and people I haven’t seen for years. I worked at a place that I truly think was the WORST job that I ever had.

Chilled with my sisters unfortunately no more than two times but tried SUSHI for the first time...something I thought I would never eat.

Randomly saw some people in the weirdest places

Ended a couple of friendships/relationships that weren’t good for me. Seems like people only want what they can’t have.

I went to a couple of basketball tournaments <3

Saw the Boo more than a couple of times <3

Walked the streets of Brooklyn && shopped the stores of Manhattan.

Went to get cupcakes with the Headache

Found a new T.V. show [Weeds] addiction that was introduced by Sunshine.

I spent more time with myself and it allowed me to learn more about myself.

Changed back and forth with phones like 5 times.

Planned to attend picnics that never happened smh

Spoke to the blackman every day…..smh he made me check in because he thought I was getting crazy without him.

Was introduced to a new drink or two…..Apple martini and Hennessey Black <3

Went to plenty BBQ’s and…..well you know how that goes.

&& now it back to packing to go back and unpack && saying my see you laters.

Junior year……wow I’m closer to the end now!

Bittersweet moments.

&& So this is for her

My right hand, my wonder twin, my closest cousin, my diary, my rock, my backbone. We are connected in so many ways and this is why we understand each other better than any other person. She’s been there through the best and the worst. Seriously I don’t know what I would do or how life would be if she wasn’t there. She helps me every step of the way through it all. When things are not going according to plan I could always turn to her for some kind of support. Even from far away we are still so close. Though I’m the only girl from my mother and father she is definitely nothing shorter than a sister. And this is why I dedicate this blog to her.

Untitled IV

I kept you on a pedestal no matter how many times you let me down.

[what does that say about me]

SMH

I will let you know when Im ready

So there have be a countless amount to times that I was asked why aren’t I in a relationship. Well if you truly knew and understood me then you would know why. I have said it many times before that I am at a point of my life that I am growing and learning more about myself. I don’t want to put myself in a situation that I am not quite sure that I am ready for at this moment. Some may see it as avoidance of commitment but that’s not what I see it as. I guess you could say IM LIVING THAT LIFE right now. But, I will let you know when I’m ready.

“I can’t say I’m not the girl for you….but I just might be her yet.”

-Teyana Taylor “Complicated”

Happy Birthday Mr. President

"Something"

Falling too fast

Clearly rules dont apply

Cant believe that

I just met you

You got me here watching minutes pass by

Wondering when to expect you

There you go is this a dream

Looking like every picture that

Ive seen of you before

Ive seen it all before now that its over

Should have known better

Then to think this was real

And you could be mine

Should have known better

Slowed it down

Cause I feel you needed time

But I kept thinkin

This could be something 3x

This could be 2x

This could be something 3x

Maybe its just nothing at all

But this could be something

This could be something 2x

This could be 2x

This could be something 3x

Maybe its just nothing at all

At all 2x

Maybe its just nothing at all

At all 2x

I guess its what we make it 2x

DRAKE