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What fashion is this that I continue to write in? I turn the music on and connect my pen to my paper or my fingers to this keyboard- and it just flows. The sweet tender lyrics on top of the melody allow me just go off into a place that I never saw myself going before. This is the only time that I have to speak my mind and say what is on my heart; without being judged about the things that pour out. To know me is to love me for what I stand for, and what exactly is it that I stand for? For a long time I used to bury everything that I saw behind these eyes but now I am telling all. I will speak my mine and let this pen flow in whatever fashion it decides to, let my fingers hit the keyboard in whatever pattern they want. Everything that I write isn’t golden, sometimes I make mistakes and grammatical errors but I’m okay with that because I’m not perfect. Sometimes when the music is playing and I’m writing about something that pertains to my life tears fall, and before I post it I think twice “Am I really ready for people to know what I’m feeling?” This fashion that I blog in is different and I like that, because we are not the same, and we go through different phases in our lives and feel different ways about different things. How could I let any situation get the best of me, when I know that I continue to give the best of me? My style of writing-hmm... I do admit that I have bipolar thoughts, but that is a part of me, one minute I could feel one way about something and the next I could feel the total opposite. I get so caught up every day trying to keep it all together. At times I feel as if I’m at odds with the world; when it doesn’t understand me and I don’t understand it; but It’s okay because times like this I blog so that I remember who I am and what I feel.